“Don't underestimate the value of Doing Nothing, of just going along, listening to all the things you can't hear, and not bothering.”

Today I have been here exactly four weeks. Time has passed so fast. Even I'm not working and I still don't know too much people here, I've not been bored at all. Days go by sleeping, cleaning, cooking, shopping, sunbathing, watching TV, facebooking and reading and I'm wondering how I ever had time to go to work. :P (I can hear you hard-working people cursing my lazy ass there...) The only thing that keeps bothering me is that I gave myself a permission to enjoy this time without working and still every day I feel bad because I'm not "useful". I hope I can get rid of that feeling before the time is over..

“If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, keep me in your heart. I'll stay there forever.”

It is amazing how it can feel so good with somebody all the time, every day, every minute. You would think that if you put two persons who are used to live alone, living in the same apartment and spend all the free time together, they would get sick of each other in some point. But at least these four weeks have been wonderful and everyday feels better than before. I realize that this propably will not go on like this forever, but now I really cannot see any reason why not.

Quotes by A. A. Milne.

Poznan.

Last weekend we started our summer 2012 mini-holidays. Which means weekend trips to various cities near by. First destination was Poznan, a Polish city about 150 kilometers from here. On friday afternoon temperature here in Wroclaw was something +30, so three hours in non-air-conditioned Polish train did not sound too tempting. But in the end it was not that bad...

I still cannot understand how is it possible that these trains are so slow. But at least you arrive to your destination according the schedule or even a little bit too early, which is not always the case with Finnish railways. :P

Our hotel was a bit out of city center, but it was cheap and had own outdoor swimming pool. The idea of jumping in the pool was keeping me alive during the sweaty, endless journey...

The hotel was located near Lake Malta, where you can find all kinds of activities. After saturday's hotel breakfast <3 we borrowed bikes from the hotel and cycled around the lake. Nice to see some nature sometimes too. ;)

Center of Poznan was really pretty, market square reminded a lot of Wroclaw's. After picking up a tourist guide we started our Poznan day tour. Besides the market squre we saw super-cute alleys and amazing Fara church. The end station of our tour was a shopping mall built in old brewery. We had late lunch in cute restaurant called Weranda. Later we tested their Mojitos in near by park where they have small terrace.

On sunday it was time to go back to the train station. Luckily the train was a bit newer than the first one so we could make ourselfs comfortable in our (almost private) booth. In the end Poznan was for sure worth of visiting, even despite over 6 hours of travelling.

Home.

First glance.

I never believed in love at first sight. I'm trying to remember that when I'm getting to know my new home. I liked Wroclaw in January when it was grey and freezing and in April when it was rainy and still much colder than I thought. In my thoughts I would have loved green, hot summer Wroclaw, but it has not been that easy. After seeing same shopping center from living room window and after walking those few streets I know it suddenly seemed all so boring. That's it? Is this all? Well of course it's not, Wroclaw is the size of Helsinki, so there must be more. So I guess it's time to come out of the familiar, safe tourist box I've been in and go out there...

We've been going around the city, for employment office and IKEA, desperately trying to find bed linen (how hard can that be?!) so I've got good opportunity to see places outside the market square. Which actually does not look familiar at all anymore, because of the huge EURO fan zone. Anyway while tramming* our way around the city I've slowly but steadily started to get somekind of picture about it, seen new corners and old ones from different angle, learned that it's much bigger than the streets around market place. Don't get me wrong I would still get lost in five minutes (and I did right at the moment I was left alone). And don't even ask about the trams. Or buses. But my point is that I think I will like it here the more I get to know the city. :)

*going by tram, just made it out :P

There's other things in life than just men.

All I need is you...and few suitcases.

23 square meters of clothes, shoes, plates, mugs, furniture and all the other things turned into two suitcases and one bag. And laptop. I have to say I'm quite pleased.

But I think it will take only few weeks to double my belongings again. :P

And of course there is still "some" clothes waiting for winter...

Anxiousness arising.

Four nights and I'm leaving. For the last week or so I've been shit scared something terrible will happen and I will never get there. Or he is not there. Or something. It's horrible feeling, when it creeps in my mind, I cannot really do or think anything else. And the stupidest thing is that the fear will not prevent bad things to happen, it only makes me feel sick to my stomach and ruins my last days here. I guess I have to trust that this will happen, I will get there and he will be there waiting.

I'm having hard time to concentrate on anything: watching tv, reading book, writing this, listening music, running, chatting with friends. Cannot really stay put, but cannot really do anything either. I just want to go. 

I've also been seeing this same dream four times this week. It's the day I'm suppose to go, but I'm still in my own flat here in Finland and all my furnitures and all the other stuff is still there. And I have one hour left before the flight and I realize there's nothing I can do to pack everything and still catch the flight. Then I wake up here, in my parents' home, having only the belongings I'm going to take with me around me. Always such a relief. But to make sure I will not sleep too long and miss the flight, I think I will stay up all night. :D

Apparently I'm slightly nervous.